Chronicles of a Partially Sane Average Man Episode 4: I'm too Average for Dating

Ahhh look at these two wonderful people. Enjoying each other's company, going out, connecting on an emotional and physical level so beautiful. How special is it that we all get to enjoy their happiness and feel the same way............. UNNNNNNNNN!!!! *buzzer goes off wrong, you see these people get to enjoy something that the vast majority of us NEVER I repeat NEVER EVER get to experience. If you have got to experience this feeling of mutual attraction and interest, good for you, hope you happy, because I certainly am not.

Right there is my little anger burst out of the way, sorry about that when I saw this image I got so angry I had to express it. This episode of the Chronicles of a Partially Sane Average man will not be like the previous episodes. There will be no jokes, no egotistical comments and no Dauking third person talking. This episode is on a topic that I am very passionate about. I want to share with you my true thoughts and feelings, no other bullshit because this will be the rarest I have ever been. With that said no more rambling lets just get straight into it..........

Nothing But a Dream:

Picture this, a young, socially awkward boy, quietly playing with action figures by himself at his desk during another ordinary primary school day. All of a sudden he looks up, as a adorable girl, same age as him walks in through the front door. Without looking around, she goes straight to her desk on the other side of the room, where her friends are waiting for her. The little boy stares at her, many thoughts running through his head even at his young age, he watches her for a bit, smiles then goes back to playing with his figurines, his first innocent primary school crush the start of a new era.....

Many years have passed and that little boy is now all grown up. He is in his last year of High School, days away from moving out into the big scary, world, no longer protected by the fortress of school. He reflects on his time at school and reminisces about his early primary school crushes. Since that first crush right back when, there have been countless others, all that have resulted in nothing but rejection and loneliness. He tries and tries and tries but his feelings are always one sided. He starts questioning why this keeps happening?, why do girls not like him?, how do other guys succeed where he always seems to fail? Is it him? must be no other explanation from these last few years. So he makes the decision to change his life, perfect himself in every way and starts a intense journey of self improvement.

A few more years pass as the young boy finally completes his self improvement journey, there is nothing left to improve. He has lost weight, adopted a new style, become more conscious about how he smells and what his hair looks like, he has become extremely confident, charismatic and is no longer socially awkward (well for the most part), he has a plan for the future and is working towards being successful, yet there is still one thing missing, the only true desire he has. the plan that has been in motion since he was a primary school kid. But alas that desire is never satisfied, he is still rejected and alone, only this time there is nothing left he can change. He has perfected himself in every way, become all the things he admired in other men, yet still no partner in sight. The worse part is it has not come from a lack of trying, he has tried so many times before and yet girls still don't see him that way. The day looks dark, his future is uncertain and his dream of being a good husband, seems to be slipping further and further away from him. He questions things again, what has he missed?, where have things gone wrong?, what part has he have yet to fix? He starts searching for answers, online and all around him but he can only come to one conclusion, one reality, one main problem. His average looks, the things he was born with and cannot change without severe consequences. His height, facial structure, body type, hairline, all these things that the men who are successful with women have. The things they were just gifted at birth and can never be completely recreated. What does that little boy, who is now a man do now? How does this story end?

A Crushing Reality:

Unfortunately this story has yet to have a happy ending, the little boy who is now a young man still has not met his better half. The dream is still very real though, I still to this day have no other desire in life then to be married. I know this may be a stupid dream and to many people there are far more important dreams to have, like having a career, a purpose or leaving a legacy. But to me these things can only make you so happy, if you find the career of your dreams eventually you will reach the point of mastery, where you cannot improve anymore. Then you will look for the next career to work towards, but even achieving this can only bring you so much happiness. There is a saying 'money can't buy happiness' this could not be more true, because no matter how many things you buy, how many places you visit, how many cars, houses, items none of it matters if you have no one to share it with. Being a parent is the most rewarding job in the world, you get to watch your own flesh and blood, struggle, succeed, cry, laugh, smile, be happy, be sad and at certain points they will rely on you to help them with a problem, making you feel needed and valued. This however, is not possible without having a partner 'it takes two to Tango' so they say and you cannot really have kids without a partner, especially as a male. Your kids pass on your memory and therefore your legacy, which is our main biological mission as humans. Love is the best feeling in the world. When two people love each other it is like two lone warriors banding together, fighting all life's trials and tribulations together as one. There is loyalty, respect, reliance, support, passion, comfort and happiness even when there are clashes due to differing opinions. Love brings us more happiness then anything else in the world and even makes life worth living. But not all connections are love, even though they may seem indistinguishable in your mind from what true love is. There are a few different kinds of love that I will talk about next, whilst giving you a bit of insight into my own experience with these kinds of love and the pain I have experienced, defining the kind of love wrong. For the only thing about love is that its a double edged sword. Whilst it is the greatest feeling in the world that has no equal, it's also capable of causing unimaginable pain, that is near impossible to cure. Starting first with a bit of a lighter form, family love....

All the Different Kinds of Love

Kind 1: Family Love

The first kind of love is family love. This is the unconditional love that you receive from your family. When children are born their parents have a deep connection to them, even if they are terrified about being parents the second they hold their child for the first time, their biological instincts take over. We as humans are created to reproduce and continue our generational line for as long as we can. When your child is born you are fulfilling that primal biological and evolutionary need to pass on your genes. This is why a parents love for their child is unconditional and no matter whether that kid ends up bad or good, a parent with still love their child no matter what. Which is why parents whose children do terrible things will always blame themselves for what their kid has done. Family love is the purest kind of love as it requires no other factors to exist, it just does. When you are in deep relationship or if you are married, there is deep love there that can be extremely powerful and wonderful. But this kind of romantic love can also disappear over time, succumbing to external factors that the relationship was not ready for. Overcoming these obstacles will make this relationship stronger, but can also ruin it as well. Family love however never dies, it always exists no matter how unwelcoming and stressful the external world is, a strong family unit will never be broken even if the world ends. Family love exists from the start of our lives to the very end, even after our parents pass on our siblings are right there beside us to laugh, cry and smile with each other. A family bond can never be broken, even if it is sometimes tested by trying circumstances, which is why it is the purest kind of love.

I have fallen victim to many mental health problems like anxiety and depression over the course of my life. I have attempted to commit suicide a few times and given in to many unhealthy addictions that ruin my life smoking, gambling and drinking to name a few. However through all these times my family have never given up on me and helped me push on with the love they provide on a daily basis. No matter how many mistakes I make, no matter how meany addictions I give into, no matter how many times I am selfish and don't think about anyone else's feelings, my family are always there. They care for me, forgive me and love me unconditionally which is the very thing that has got me through all my suffering, across the course of my life. However whilst family love is unconditional and never dies, there are other kinds of love that are not as strong. Friendship is also a kind of strong love, that has the potential to become family love, how does this happen? well read on and see for yourself......

Kind 2: Friendship

The second kind of love is friendship, which has the amazing capability of transforming into various different versions of itself. No I am not talking about shapeshifting although I know many of us would love if our friends could shapeshift. I myself would thoroughly enjoy it if my best mate could transform into Sydney Sweeney once and a while. Okay that sounded weird I didn't mean it like that, oh let it go would you >:( . Jokes and Sydney Sweeney aside (although she may make a reappearance in this post) friendship can come in may shapes and sizes. From surface level friendships like favorite customers, friendly service people or nice old ladies you talk to at the grocery store. To workmates, classmates, acquaintances or nicer old ladies you talk to at the supermarket. Right down to your deep long term friendships that know more about you than you know yourself. The people who you can be 100% authentic around, with no strings attached. People who wont put up with your bullshit giving you tough love once and a while, but only has your better interest at heart. All these relationships come under the banner of friendship with the only difference being the level of intimacy.

I am not a friendly guy surprise, surprise (what did you expect from some random asshole on the internet) but even I still have one really good person in my life, who after 11 years is now more my brother, rather than my friend. He will always call me out on my bullshit and make me reconsider bad decisions or things that I do. When we meet up it doesn't matter how many days, weeks or years it has been since we last saw each other, its like nothing has changed at all. I would trust him with my life (and I would hope he feels the same way lol) He is my brother in arms, my emotional support and keeps life interesting. This is the kind of friendship that i worth it's weight in diamonds and yes I said diamonds not gold that's how important having a friend like him is. When I get married (if it ever happens more on that in a moment lol) he will be first in line to be my best man, he will share all my greatest experiences as he has so far, he will be with me through the hard times, the good times and beside me on the other hospital bed as we pass away together. From which we will be buried next to each other so we can never be separated. Ha Ha Ha Ha...... Okay maybe that is a little bit too far but it gets my point across of how close we are. Friends like him come around once in a lifetime and need to be held onto no matter what. This is because having someone like that, is the only way to truly survive the difficult trials, tribulations and rewards of life. So I say to you now for those that have someone like this hold onto them dearly and never let them go, problems? fix them, fights? apologize to them, great successes? celebrate together and you will see how great life can really be. To those who don't have this person in their life, never give up searching, find the person you are closest to and build a deeper connection. Just make sure that they have your best interest in mind, a lot of the time we try become close with people who are not worth it for status or social reasons. These people are not good friends, I repeat these people are NOT good friends. But I assure you if you treat people with respect and screen everyone who you meet, I am sure you will find at least one person who has the values to become a friend like this with loyalty being in the forefront. So don't give up, believe in people and I guarantee you will find someone who eventually will become no longer your friend, but your family instead.

All the other typed of friendship are great to have but nowhere near as valuable as having what I would call 'a perfect friend' or an 'adopted family member' like my mate. So therefore I don't feel the need to go deeper into those friendships, they are all surface level and could turn on you at any moment. So I will just move swiftly on to the next kind of love, which is a unique one and extremely special. The kind of love that no matter what happens in life never disappears. Relationships end, friendships breakup and family can sometimes get so caught up in life that they forget what family love truly is. Which brings us nicely onto the next kind of love 'unconditional love'.

Kind 3: Unconditional Love

"Dauking I thought all love was unconditional so why is it's own category" this is the question you are probably screaming at your screen right now. Well I hate to tell you but you're only half right. There are certain relationships within the other kinds of love that are unconditional, for example parents will always unconditionally love their children, regardless of how many mistakes their children make. Just like brother's and sister's will always love each other regardless of whether they get along or not. However many of the other relationships in our lives only last as long as certain conditions are met. For example if you turn around one day and start being cruel to your best friend they might forgive you a few times, but after a while they wont tolerate the abuse anymore and will stop interacting with you. If this period of silence lasts too long it may cause you and your friend to grow apart no matter how close you are. Alternatively if you apologize and start being nice to them again, if they are a true friend they will forgive you and you can move past this whole situation. However, even if you move past it the damage you caused to them will be remembered forever, whether you want it to or not.

In terms of romantic relationships, it will only last as long as both parties still feel the love in the relationship. If either the physical, mental, sexual or spiritual chemistry doesn't align the relationship wont last potentially ending in the worst possible circumstances. This is the cause of most cases of infidelity in relationships, there are a few other potential causes as well but I will cover those in another post. Long story short most relationships in our lives aside from family are all based on conditions and these all must be consistently met in order for a relationship to continue. Owning a pet though, is another form of unconditional love. Pets only bring joy to our lives and owning one requires a large physical and emotional investment from the person in question. We have to feed them, bath them, play with them and cuddle them all for nothing in return. That's why not everyone is cut out to be a pet owner as some people simply don't have the patience or resources to own one, therefore resulting in some pets living in very poor conditions. With that said owning a pet adds a huge amount of joy and excitement to our lives. Sometimes when our human relationships become too taxing on our energy, interacting with our pets can be a sure way to relieve the stress and just live in the moment for a second. I know my dog has helped get me through some really bad days. When my whole world seems to be collapsing around me due to the hardships of life, he helps me get thorough it not by talking to me, or going out for a night on the town with me (well maybe sometimes ;) ) but just with his presence alone. He will jump up on the couch, give me a cuddle, making me feel like life is not so bad.

Unconditional love is the most spectacular form of love as it is the only thing in this world, other than energy that never dies. Unconditional love makes you feel nothing but joy and happiness. There is a reason why the event of holding a newborn child can reduce even the toughest, hardest people to tears. Unconditional love is innate and can not be destroyed by anything or anyone. It is the most powerful form of love and by far one of the most beautiful. So hug you parents, kiss your pets and see how easily this kind of love can reduce your stress levels and put you at peace so value these relationships more than any other as they are proof that pure true love exists. Pets are great and can increase you happiness levels at any time, however most of the time humans require more then just happiness. This next kind love can be painful, joyful, exciting, scary but is extremely important as it will stop you feeling alone. It is equally the worst and the best kind of love and something not everyone gets to experience, especially in our modern times. It is based on deep evolutionary programming, therefore something everyone desires regardless of the type of person you are. It's also ironically the kind that I have a lot of, but simultaneously no experience with at the same time. The most cruel, yet rewarding kind of love Romantic Love......

Kind 4: Romantic Love

The third kind of love is romantic love. This kind is equally the worst and best kind of love that exists. When you have someone your truly love and believe you are meant to be with, it brightens up your life to a level that nothing else can match. It has the power to make your day 'the best you have ever had' or make your day 'the worse day to have ever existed in history'. Yes okay I am over dramatizing these, but if you saw me when I am in love you would want to be around me. I am positive, upbeat, happy and just glowing, compared to when I am not I am bitter, intolerable, depressing and not at all fun to be around. I also feel that I am not the only one who feels this way, the high that being in love gives you in your brain is unmatched. It is an amazing feeling being in love but very fragile, when you love someone so much obsession can for (more on this later) and that can be your undoing if you cannot regulate it. Romantic love is special and when you have a deep mutual passion for one another, love can be the greatest, yet most trying journey of your life. But it most certainly keeps your life interesting, for you cannot have love without drama (Dauking, 2025 quote me on that :) ). However when love and passion are not mutual it can be the worst feeling you will ever have in your life, I personally would much rather be repeatedly punched in the balls rather than suffer anymore unrequited love situations. However whilst love has a yin and a yang, life would not be the same without it and I am going to do it a disservice by trying to simplify it for you. Love is extremely complicated and cannot be clearly defined but I will do my best starting with the first type of romantic love True Love......

True Love:

When I mention true love many of you might have the hollywood movie idea of your perfect soulmate, a fated encounter that leads to two very different people connecting, not realizing they are meant for each other so date others, then in the end come back together because they now know they were made for each other. This is a overly dramatized, unrealistic version of true love designed to sell movie tickets. It is everyone's perfect fantasy but almost never happens. There are some cases in the real world like this but it is extremely rare. The more realistic, worldly version of the story is we meet people, go on a few dates, have sex, agree to be in a relationship and work together to try build our partner into our ideal, with discussions, arguments and eventually change or acceptance. This takes many years and a lot of work to build this long term powerful relationship and along the way eventually feeling that you are soulmates. This kind of love is difficult, messy, painful, but at the same time fulfilling, exciting and leads to a happy life. There is a saying 'love conquers all' and I could not agree with this statement more, as long as you are in love you can deal with anything, fight anything, win and lose time and time again in life without ever feeling truly defeated. True love is raw, special and rare and for those lucky enough to experience it should never take it for granted. But here lies the problem with true love, which is that not everyone gets the wonderful opportunity to experience it. I have lived a few years now and have unfortunately never had the opportunity to experience true love.

This is why when it comes to romantic love I am severely inexperienced, even going as far as me still being a virgin at my older age. If by some miracle I ever find true love, I will be so out of my depth, that I don't even know whether I will be able to cope. But I will tell you one thing, I don't care how petrifying, stressful or uncomfortable things will be, dammit I would give anything to have it. I have wanted to be married since I was a child, it was my only true dream and yet even now it seems to elude me. I guess what I am getting at is that I will not be able to speak much on true love as I wouldn't where to even start. All I know comes from what I have been told and witnessed across the course of my life. I have witnessed pain, anguish, depression, excitement, happiness, emotions flying all over the place, a chaotic crazy mess that seems like the most exhilarating ride of life. Every day I see a relationship built on or still building true love I get jealous, because as emotionally draining as it is there is not a single thing that can compare to it. When I see a lovely old couple who have clearly been together for a long time, a tear almost always forms in my eye as it is a perfect example of what is possible. We all aim to find the perfect partner and some of us never find it, however we do also tend to forget that the perfect partner does not exist, the only thing that exists is potential. Potential for a loving relationship between two people to blossom and grow into the most spectacular experience of your life. When I remind my self of that I have faith and start to believe once again that even though I may be struggling now, I desire more than anything to be that little old couple and it reignites my desire to keep going, keep believing that anything is possible. However be warned for there are specific types of romantic love that take the form of true love, but lack the mutuality due to this it cannot be classed as true love, yet it still feels the same. It is important to be aware of these in order not to fall victim to them, for these are the types of romantic love that only generate pain and suffering. I will now educate you in these and I regret to say that these are the kinds I have extensive experience in. The first kind being more unrealistic than anything else in this world, something called a para-social relationship.

Para--Social Relationships:

See I told you Sydney Sweeney would make a reappearance and what better section to put her in. She is the perfect representation of my love life, lusting after girls that I cannot have. She is my latest and greatest celebrity crush, a woman so stunning that if the sun disappeared tomorrow she could replace it's light and warmth. This is the perfect example of a para-social relationship. Sydney baby does not even know I exist and yet I feel a inner sense of us being meant for each other. I love her with every ounce of my being and it pains me to wake up everyday knowing I will probably never EVER get to meet her. However even if I did get to meet her, I know I would do something stupidly regrettable and would probably get aresste........

Ha Ha Ha nah just kidding, I have a crush on her but I like to think I have grown up since my youth, therefore, should know what's appropriate or not. However this is the perfect window into the psychology behind a para-social relationship, it is a form of unrequited love. However this kind of unrequited love is not quite as painful nor as difficult to get over compared to unreciprocated feelings from someone you know well.

Para-Social relationships have always been prominent in our society, right back starting with when people read stories of great heroes or heroines. A para-social relationship is best defined as extreme romantic feelings for someone you have never met and likely will never meet. Movie stars, TV stars, Models, Book characters and any other kind of person who is in the public eye, can draw us in and create these strong romantic feelings. People who are constantly in the public eye usually have a persona separate from their true self, something that is marketable and can keep people interested. This can give them the power to become a representation of their audiences ideal partner, creating a blurred line between reality and fantasy. This effect has been further enhanced by the digital age as now people have access to not just Television, books and magazines, but youtube and social media as well. This has created a whole new generation of idolized personas and given anyone the ability to tap into it. Meaning that more people have become captivated and obsessed with certain people who present themselves as a carefully crafted fantasy. Influencers, Instagram models, OnlyFans stars and Youtubers are only a few of the newly created entities who present themselves in a way, that allows them to appeal to their audience members fantasies. Yes, many of these kinds of people show their authentic selves in order to relate to their audience, but to keep things entertaining they are still required to exaggerate their personality to keep people invested.

Yes, they provide new entertainment and provide us with a temporary escape from our everyday, simple, boring lives, I even find myself watching more youtube videos than films in this day in age. But in the process have also created more cases of para-social relationships, as now you can watch people anywhere, at anytime, with that little phone box in your hand and an internet connection. These relationships can also become harmful as the longer they prosper the more the obsession builds, leading to many cases of stalking, spending ridiculous amounts of money or just plain building your whole self worth, around the unlikely attention you receive from them on social media or in comments sections. I myself have had many para social relationships that have effected my mental state greatly and almost caused me to spend money on someone who I will never meet. The psychology behind para-social relationships is interesting as how can one person become so infatuated with some random person online, the answer to this is unclear.

All I know is that these relationships can either manifest at a basic level with a cut out of a person on your wall, with a love heart around their picture for a small amount of time. Or to a crazed obsession level where you are spending hours a day checking everyone of their public profiles to see new updates, begging not to see them with another person especially romantically. Which unfortunately usually ends up being the case, but after all what did you expect your have never even met them. Luckily for all those in para-social relationships they are relitively easier to get over once you realize it is nothing but a fantasy. If you remind yourself everyday of the barriers that stand between you and the person and you realize the impossibility of this relationship happening. You can start moving on from it and focusing instead on people who you do interact with daily. "But Dauking I know it can happen I just have to make 20 grand, fly to America and stroll around their regular hang out spots until I see them, then they will realize we are meant to be together an...." do you hear yourself is that really practical I think not, trust me I know I had many of those plans to. But effectively I was still forgetting one huge, important element THEY DON'T KNOW ME AT ALL and don't think they will be willing to change their relationship status with a crazy, obsessed online stalker.

It's hard to get over but easy once you think practically, if you were meant to be together you would already be in their inner circle. Because the chances are once you do eventually suceed in your plan they will already be in a long term stable relationship with a few exes in their past. Because if you like them what makes you think other people wont to and you will always lose to someone who has been around them a long time. These relationships can be extremely painful to get over, but it can be done so just realize your delusion and wake up. However, no matter how painful these are to get over they pale in comparison to the next kind of romantic love. This one hurts like a bitch and is one million times worse to get over than a para-social relationship. This is because the next kind involves physical interactions between you and you crush ranging anywhere from monthly, to daily. The one I have the most experience in and what all my stories are based around 'pure unrequited love' get ready this still kills me to talk about now...

Pure Unrequited Love:

Imagine this you are at school and there is somebody in your class that catches your eye. You don't know what it is about them but there is something. Is it their physical appearance, their personality, their social status what is it? you watch them some more and you start to feel something, something in your chest a feeling is it excitement? no. Is it happiness? no. Is it sadness or anger? no. It actually feels like a combination of all of them together, so you don't really know how you feel. You come back into class day after day and see them, the feelings seem to be getting stronger. Soon you are waiting every morning for their arrival, when the walk in your heart starts racing, you become anxious, you start pruning yourself making sure you look your best, you go to try talk to them but pull away it's too terrifying. Your in class staring at them subtly of course, when they look your way you instantly turn away, then look back once their gaze is no longer on you. You may have small interactions with them throughout the day but nothing really deep, however you heart stops every time. All of a sudden you notice them looking at someone else the way you look at them and you heart sinks. You feel like your whole world is collapsed and that you will never be happy again. But you keep on trying, stepping up your game a little bit everyday, now you are the one starting interactions, you are the once chasing. Every time they look in another's direction you try harder, you increase your rate of interactions and seek to hang around them more. It is excruciatingly painful but you keep going, you keep trying, after all why stop you are MEANT to be together.

That was a little description of what it feels like to love someone that does not love you back which is the definition of unrequited love. We meet and interact with so many people in our lives, that it would be near impossible to not have at least one crush. They can be anyone from a workmate, to a classmate, to a celebrity (this is a unique one and we will cover it later) even a friend, which is by far the worst one. Many of these feelings go completely unnoticed or ignored, which is why they are so painful. Love hurts, being vulnerable with someone and sharing every inch of yourself is risky, we all have feelings and mental pain does not heal as easily as physical pain. The example above is just one kind of unrequited love based on my own experiences (many, many experiences) and does not depict every different kind of unrequited love. Some people don't even interact with their crush, whether it is due to geographical or status reasons, limited exposure to their person or just plain fear. Some cases of unrequited love only ever operate in ones own head. Unrequited love is painful and can take a lot of energy to get over, however there are some situations where things get even worse an getting over it proves nearly impossible.

This usually happens when the feelings become so overwhelming and powerful that they cause obsession. You will idolize this person and overlook their faults claiming "That's just who they are" or "Yeah but that's not a big deal" or the worst "It's alright I can fix them". The truth is no matter how hard your try, no matter how hard you work, you cannot fix people who do not want to be fixed which more often then not is the reality. I will talk about it in another post, but I have had a plethora of situations with this exact scenario, where I thought I could fix someone who doesn't want to be fixed. Obsession can build and build to the degree that your happiness depends on your day to day interactions with this person. Which over time becomes extremely unhealthy and starts taking a huge toll on your physical and mental health. Every time I had a crush I would stay up all night lying in my bed planning my future with this person, who in no way shape or form was giving me the time of day. But the fantasies made me happy and gave me something to live for, until reality hit me. Once you realize that you fantasies are nothing more than fantasies, it breaks you, shatters you into a million pieces, sometimes even going as far to make you consider or attempt taking your own life. It hurts so deeply that your whole life is effected and nobody other than that person possesses the ability to help you.

However fortunately there is one other person in the world who can help you and that's yourself. Getting over an obsession is hard and can last months on end but you will eventually get through it, if you just keep going. Remind yourself every day that this relationship is nothing more than a fantasy and that you need to forget about them. But Dauking How the hell do I do that, it's impossible I love them too much? No, No you don't love is a two way street, if the person does not reciprocate your feelings then it is not love it is obsession, realize that as fact then remind yourself that any thought, fantasy or feeling about them is just your obsession and not love. Obsessions disappear over time, sometimes it takes awhile but they will fade away, after all nothing can compare to the actual feeling of being in love. Which I unfortunately at this moment have not had the opportunity to experience. But I still somewhat hope that one day I will because nothing compares to true love. Yes some people feel these feelings stronger than other's I am one of them, but that just means it may take a little longer to get over them than other's. I have had too many obsessions to count at this point but I have always managed to get over them with time, just believe you can and keep reminding yourself that these feelings, fantasies and thoughts are fake, I can tell you the key but only you can deal with them. So give it your best shot and who knows maybe one day you will get to experience the unbelievable experience of true love, which you now know that your obsessions are not. (oh and just for reference I have titled the below image file you are strong, because you are! always believe that)

Summary:

In summary there are many different kinds of love that exist in this world some that can be more pain than pleasure, some that can change or alter based on whether certain conditions are met and some that no matter what life brings will always remain unbreakable. Love is one of the greatest pleasures of this world and experiencing any of these kinds is a reward like no other. Yes it can break us, scare us, stress us out, but simultaneously it can bring us unspeakable joy, excitement and a way to deal with the struggles that life brings. Love is amazing in every way and if you are one of the lucky ones you may get to experience all kinds in one lifetime. But for those who haven't or are yet to experience some of these kinds of love never give up on it. For no matter how long you have to wait it will be worth every second, minute, hour and year that you have been patient. Love is special and can never truly be destroyed so believe in it, trust it and embrace it as it is the only true thing in this world that is worth living for. That I know for sure.

Phew that took a while, sorry this episode was so long and if you have read all of it I thank you. I had a blast writing this so thanks again for reading, I hope this episode has helped you appreciate the feeling of love more. With that all out of the way I will thank you one more time for reading and say always remember to dance like a chicken, live life to it's fullest and have a very good day.

Dauking Out *Salute

(P.S. I have included one more photo of Sydney Sweeney down below just because I can my blog and all ;) Enjoy)